TGIF
Wow, its been forever since I’ve been on here! I have been super busy lately and I am kinda stressing out. Right now I am in 3 ap classes and lets just say it is alot of work. Between work, school, and homework, I feel as though I never get a break; it sucks. I am super excited that it is finally the weekend now! I don’t have to work and I am going to get most of my homework done before the football game tonight so that I can sit back and relax for the rest of the weekend. TGIF <3 On top of all that, I still have all of my college applications to do and it is just stressing me out. I think that I might work on that a little this weekend before next week arrives and I get super busy once again. Basically, I am just looking forward to being done with all that college stuff I have yet to do because I will feel much less stressed :)
I can do this, I can do this, ahh I don’t want to.. but I have to.
So I have finished to Kill a Mockingbird and I have 74 pages left in 1984…ahh I feel like I have been reading all day and I still have 74 pages left of this, what the heck! And then I have Guns, Germs, and Steel left to read before school starts on September 6th. Of course, its the longest book out of them all. Well technically I have 2 books left but the other one I can either read now or during the school year, so I’m saving that for last just incase I don’t get to it haha. Anyways, I love reading but sometimes its hard to focus on reading all day. Plus, if your like me and you read out loud because it helps you process your thoughts better well then you just start getting tired of talking. Soo basically what I am trying to say is that I need the motivation to atleast finish 1984 by today because I’m going to be busy these next days and school is not that far off! sigh.. back to reading.
I like this song :) It comes from the movie the Help which I really wanna see !
Thoughts..
Now that summer is coming to a close in a few weeks and school is starting back up, I really need to stop slacking off and get that summer reading done with. Also, I am applying for a second job today :) Hopefully I get it! I am actually really excited for school to start back up, don’t ask lol. It’ll be good to be back at STMA for my senior year. Wow, I can’t believe I am a senior.. weird. Random side note.. Today’s cool weather somehow reminds me of one of a fall september school day, and I like it. I can’t wait for fall weather! Jeans and sweaters <3 ahhh excitement
Sometimes I wonder…
I know I already posted today about my dad and Wanda getting a divorce, but I just thought I would add to that a little. I just wonder about people sometimes. I wonder why they thought it was such a good idea to get married after a very short time of knowing each other. I wonder why she came in not wanting to give us kids a chance. I wonder why she put us through all of that hell just to turn around and leave a few months later. Who does that? My family has already been through enough. I am very happy that she is leaving but I wonder what my life at home for this last year before college will be like now? I know that my dad is to blame as much as her but when she came in she tore this family even farther apart than it already was. Can somebody really be that selfish?? I’ve been through alot of shit these past couple of years, but I know that I never want to turn out to be a cold, selfish, bitch. I’ve never had someone act so cruel toward me and for what nothing.. she has no idea who I am. All I can say is that she is leaving next saturday and will forever be out of my life. Maybe my dad has finally come to his senses and realized what is happening to this family. Maybe my dad and I can work out our relationship so that I can finally have a real dad. Maybe, just maybe my life will begin to take a turn for the better alas.
Hell yeah baby!!
I just received word that my dad and step-mom are getting a divorce!!!!! Thank goodness! This is the best news I have gotten in a long time! Having a fantastic day (: Thats right Wanda, go back to where you came from!!!
Past, present, and the future
Two years ago today, I was asked out by a boy. One year ago today we celebrated our one year anniversary, a couple weeks later we broke up. Today, I am single and crushing on one of my best friends. Two years ago today I would have never thought that I would see Ethan as any more than a very good friend, but here I am. It is amazing how so many things can change in your life in such a few short years. Who would have ever thought that the nice boy in 9th grade would be one of those friends who I can trust telling anything to and who understands me. All along he was the one who could see the pain behind the laughs and the smiles. He may not know what it feels like to have lost a parent, heartbroken by the one who you thought was your everything at one point , gained a step-parent who wants nothing to do with you, has a dad who doesn’t love you and feels uncomfortable in thine own home. Yet, despite the fact that he has never faced any of these troubles, he understands me better and has stuck with me no matter what, more than most of the people I know. I know that we aren’t dating as of this point right now, but no matter what happens I will always love him because he is one of the most kind-hearted guys I have ever met and nobody could ever replace the wonderful guy that he is and has always been :)
Anytime now :)
The best friend should be arriving anytime now!! (:
I like the beat of this song :)
Super Excited
My best friend who I have known my entire life is coming here on Sunday (She lives in Appleton, Wisconsin.. about 6ish hours from here) anyways, I haven’t seen her in like a year and I CANNOT WAIT! Ahhh so flippin excited! Plus, the good thing is that I have been occupied these last few days as well as will be occupied with a birthday party/sleepover tonight and work all day tomorrow so time won’t go super duper slow! Anyways…. ahhhhh sooo excited!
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